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Name: Shannon
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 10/23/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: DaNcE...GuYs..sHoPpiNg...MuSiC..uhh...CaRs! i LOVE CaRs.
Expertise: Dance...uh..DuH! DaNcE aNd CANDY! want candy? come visit me and i'll hook it up!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Member Since:
7/22/2003
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| so...i have a new found love for the music of the wonderful Pasty Cline. Don't get me wrong, i've always liked her music...but it means something more than just a good song to me. i've come to the conclusion that i'm not completely over geno. songs like this helped me realize that. don't get me wrong, i'm happier than i've ever been...well, at least happier than i have been in a long time. but i'm still so unhappy and unsatisfied. anyways...here's the song.
Patsy Cline - She's Got You
I've got your picture that you gave to me
And it's signed "with love," just like it used to be
The only thing different, the only thing new
I've got your picture, she's got you
I've got the records that we used to share
And they still sound the same as when you were here
The only thing different, the only thing new,
I've got the records, she's got you
I've got your memory, or has it got me?
I really don't know, but I know it won't let me be
I've got your class ring; that proved you cared
And it still looks the same as when you gave it dear
The only thing different, the only thing new
I've got these little things, she's got you
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| yes, i wish i could just ctrl+z somethings in my life...so that they never happened. i wish i could ctrl+z the first heartbreak i ever had, i wish i could ctrl+z back to high school and actually work towards something aside from my friends. i with i could ctrl+z my emotional instability and mental anguish away.
i am numb right now. i can laugh, but i am not happy...i can cry, but am i really sad?
i don't really know what to think about things, what to feel about things, that to do about things, or what to say when it seems like everything comes crashing down on me. much like tonight, for example.
the past 2 weeks have been rough for me. feeling and longing for someone that i cannot attain right at the moment...i know he is becoming distant, but i feel as if the romantic connection we have is diminishing, and that someone else will come along to mend it and start a new one. i'm afraid someone will take my place as the 'girlfriend'. do i sound crazy? probably. i'm probably going to read this in a week or so, and kick myself in the butt, and say,"shannon, you've done it again. you've managed to make yourself look like a lunatic one more time."
so getting back to my story....i'm already emotionally unstable, probably mentally unstable as well. (yes people...i am admittin i'm a little bonkers) but if you know me, you know i was slightly crazy anyways. but yeah...so emotionally/mentally unstable...some drunk asshole kissed me on the fucking bus on the way home from work. we got what was coming to him. he ran past our car..(i told my dad what happened and he went looking for the guy)...i was so fucking worked up i wanted to fucking sock the guy my damn self...and i really wanted to spit on him. i don't ever spit...especially on people, but this drunk bastard deserved it.
i cried the whole way back to look for the asshole, and then cried the whole way home. i felt contaminated...i felt like there was a virus spreading over my scalp. i took a shower and still felt gross.
yeah...anyways...i just don't know what to do anymore...i just don't know...i thought maybe leaving for a few days would be good. but later realized it would be worse for me. all i can do right now is not think about anything..because if you don't think about it, its not there to bother you...and if its not there to bother you, then you can't really be upset. (again, this is going to be one of those blogs where i kick myself after reading it in a couple weeks).
so live journal, i leave you tonight with a song i haven't heard....probably since it came out....
Goo Goo Dolls - Iris
And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
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| ok...couple things...i've got a fucked up nerve in my right
hand...don't really know how to fix it...bought a brace that doesn't
sem to be working...my arm keeps falling asleep and i'm not even
leaning on it...its weird...like...all of a sudden i'll notice my whole
arm is cold..pfft...
also...i noticed all of my posts i've
posted since i came back have been songs. at first i was wondering why
i did that...then a lightbulb clicked. i love music of all kinds...and
i also have a hard time expressing my feelings...when i hear a song
that related to what i'm feeling, i get kind of attached to it, then i
listen to it for like 2 days till i feel better about whatever is going
wrong with me.
today's song is "Where Does The Good Go"....i'm
not really having the same problems....but this song is really
affecting me today....here it is...enjoy...
haha...i love how i say enjoy like someone actually reads this.
...and i love how writing a blog that no one reads is like talking to youtself.
...i always knew i was crazy.
Tegan and Sara - Where Does The Good Go
Where do you go with your broken heart in tow
What do you do with the left over you
And how do you know, when to let go
Where does the good go, where does the good go
Look me in the eye and tell me you don't find me attractive
Look me in the heart and tell me you won't go
Look me in the eye and promise no love's like our love
Look me in the heart and unbreak broken, it won't happen
It's love that leaves and breaks the seal of always thinking you would be
Real, happy and healthy, strong and calm, where does the good go
Where does the good go
Where do you go when you're in love and the world knows
How do you live so happily while I am sad and broken down
What do you say it's up for grabs now that you're on your way down
Where does the good go, where does the good go | | |
| so i had my ipod on shuffle, and this song came up...never really listened to it till tonight, and for some reason i can't take it off repeat....this one goes out to everyone who wants to be more than just friends...
98 Degrees - Why Are We Still Friends
We do almost everything that lovers do
And that’s why it’s hard, just to be friends with you
Every time your heart is broken by the fool
I want you to know that it hurts me too
It’s hard to wipe your tears away (tears away)
Knowing that you should be with me
Now tell me why
[CHORUS:]
Why – why are we still friends
When everything says
We should be more than we are
And tell me why every time I find
Someone that I like
We always end up just being friends (Just Being Friends)
I would hate for you to find somebody new
Who you really love, cause it would mean losing you
But am I a fool girl not to say
If I’m always scared I’ll lose you anyway
Somehow somewhere I’ve got to choose (got to choose)
No matter if it’s win or lose
Now tell me why
[CHORUS]
I don’t wanna be like your brother
I don’t wanna be your best friend
I only wanna be your lover
When will this end
If I told you that I wanna be in your life
Then you could be the woman in mine
[CHORUS x2]
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| so i don't really know what to write about, nor do i know why i am writing. i'm bored and so tired i'm borderlind delerious. listening to 'play that funky music white boy'. woot. i don't know what to day...so here are some lyrics to a song i've been listening to...enjoy...
HANSON
"MMMBop"
Oh oh oh oh oh
Yeah
You have so many relationships in this life
Only one or two will last
You go through all the pain and strife
Then you turn your back and they're gone so fast
Oh yeah
And they're gone so fast, yeah
Oh
So hold on the ones who really care
In the end they'll be the only ones there
And when you get old and start losing your hair
Tell me who will still care
Can you tell me who will still care?
Oh care
Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du
Yeah
Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du
Yeah
Oh yeah
In an Mmmbop they're gone
Yeah yeah
Plant a seed, plant a flower, plant a rose
You can plant any one of those
Keep planting to find out which one grows
It's a secret no one knows
It's a secret no one knows
Oh, no one knows
Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du, yeah
Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du, yeah
Oh
Yeah oh
In an mmm bop they're gone
Oh yeah oh
In an mmmbop they're gone
In an mmm bop they're not there
In an mmmbop they're gone
In an mmm bop they're not there
In an mmmbop they're gone
In an mmmbop they're not there
In an mmmbop they're gone
In an mmmbop they're not there
Until you lose your hair
Oh
But you don't care
Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du, yeah
Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du, yeah
Yeah
Oh yeah oh oh
So hold on the ones who really care
In the end they'll be the only ones there
And hen you get old and start losing your hair
Tell me who will still care
Can you tell me who will still care?
Oh care
Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du, yeah
Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du, care
Can you tell me? oh
No you can't 'cause you don't know
Can you tell me? oh
You say you can but you don't know
Can you tell me? oh
(Which flower's going to grow?)
No you can't 'cause you don't know
Can you tell me? oh
(If it's going to be a daisy or a rose?)
You say you can but you don't know
Can you tell me? oh
(which flower's going to grow?)
No you can't 'cause you don't know
Can you tell me? oh
You say you can but you don't know
Oh yeah
You say you can but you don't know
You dont know
You dont know, oh
Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du, yeah
Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du, care
Oh
Can u tell me? oh
No you can't 'cause you don't know
Can u tell me? oh
You say you can but you don't know
Can u tell me? oh
No you can't 'cause you don't know
Can u tell me?
You say you can but you don't know
...word to the mothership.
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